Overload Issues

Actually there are quite so much events are going on in my campus now. And there is this tinyyyy lil prob create by some of the un-proffesionals peoples. Oh well just cut the crap out. My friends and I hope we tidak kena tempias lah.

Last Sunday or Saturday maybe. It was quite damn hot but not so hot. Lol annnnd I made myself dragonfruit with Nestle Almond Praline. Lets om nom nom hehe

Oh how I miss home so much right now. :'(

Tears In My Heart

I was too happy that I am finally going back..do something that give benefits to myself. No more lying around and eat most of the time. But when I almost reach my destination...it rains heavily. Somehow, I feel so sad. Sad to leave my precious home, my precious cats, my lovely family.

Day one, trying my best not feeling homesick. Thanks God my friend Lisa is around. Semester 4 so far is awesome. With new subjects and classes. Trying my best to interact with people.

And now I am at my home sweet home. No class tomorrow. Yet I feel I should not have left my friend alone. I am so sorry my dear crazy friend. But no fear this Sunday me roommie and I will be back. Cheers. Miss F :)

Expressing Some Dissatisfaction

Things I'm going to say might affected your personal feelings and thought. Just so you know I'm just expressing my dissatisfaction of some people that speak before they think. 

Few days before my friends and I planned to meet up today before our holiday end. However, due to certain circumstances I have to cancel last minute. This was my second time unable to join meet up with friends. To tell the truth, I am the introvert type of person. I don't like to mix around much. Even when I do I prefer with people I'm comfortable with and prefer to hang out in a group of  5 or 6.

The habit of not like mixing around with people has become worst. That is what I think. Last semester my uni friends will plan to hang out at the town on weekends. I tried to say NO but in the end having problem to say the word NO has end up me saying YES. Not that I hate hanging out with my friends. I dislikes the part where they say they hate my hometown. My hometown is boring because there are no shopping mall and even with the current one they can't considered it to be mall. No interesting places to go. Prices of foods and etc are too expensive. Regret coming here. They say we people have no night life. I was like what? "Night life like going to club something? Sing k till midnight and end up late to class the next day?"

In my heart I was like "be patience be patience". Anyone can't stand when people saying bad things about your hometown right? Even thinking about it made me angry. Just because I continue my study they said Be brave and go out there and start your journey! When it is the time to be independence? I still remembered this one coursemate of mine said I don't deserve to feel homesick and that person said the same thing to my Sabahan friend. I feel like slapping her on that exact moment but I tried not to do so. Whenever they start saying bad things about my hometown I will remember back how they were acting like kids never seen a beach before and never feels not having a jam journey before.

Sorry that I'm being so emotional here. But how about stop comparing my hometown and your hometown. You said living in this kind of places is like living in a jungle is worst? So is that mean that living in a free and fresh air where there are many greens that provide us oxygen is worst? How about think how the poor children and people who are living in the rural area that has no electricity and water? Places that has war, no clean water and food, no shelter and no clean clothes? 

This night time view in Labuan is not mine. Credits to someone who posted out there and found in google

 P/S - My hometown is called W.P. Labuan (Federal Territory of Labuan). Not many Malaysian know about it. Sad? Yes I do. Because Malaysia have 14 states including 1 Federal Territory. If they can remember KL and Putrajaya why not Labuan?

How To Learn To Say No Without Feeling Guilty?

I have a habit or maybe one of my weakness where whenever I said "NO" to someone request to help them especially to my friends, the feeling of guilt will slowly take over in me.

SITUATION 1 
FRIEND : Hey want to go out tomorrow?
ME : *feeling a little tired and lazy* Erm never mind lah
FRIEND : Eh why? Come lah holiday mah. Many people even better hangout later
ME : *fake laugh* No lah not feeling well. Next time bah okay
FRIEND : Oh okay rest well
ME : *2 minutes later** Ugh I should have say yes just now*

SITUATION 2
FRIEND : Can you help me do this please? I really don't know what it means.
ME : Here are some examples you can refer. Try see first then maybe you will have idea later.
FRIEND : *5 minutes later* I really don't know what I am doing lah. Yo help me check mine lah and help me correct it.
ME : Haah?? Erm okay okay *leave friend work like that and didn't check*

SITUATION 3
FRIEND : Hey later long semester break can I put my stuff at your place?
FRIEND 2 : Yaya. I have thing want to put at your place also. Hostel store got limits leh.
ME : *I DONT WANNA HELP YOUUUU. MY HOUSE GOT NO PLACE TO PUT YOUR STUFF LAAAAH!* Oh okay then.

In the end I will just agree to help them and in the end I'm the one who always end up with overload works and responsibility. Plus some MIGHT thought I'm a bit "SOMBONG".  It is not that I don't want to help you but what people said? Tak mampu or I don't think I can.